flying woman // by ryactor

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this community could be awesome, if we wrote in it more... (me too.. i know i am horrible about updating online journals) anyway, any ideas on how to improve this community? should we tell more camp people about it? let me know.

"a sheep or two and a kangaroo"
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Wicked // by ryactor

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i love camp. this weekend was amazing. i can't say much now (it's exam week and i have a lot to study) but i will leave this:

“Statistics estimate that by age 15, over 3 million children in the US will experience the loss of a family member. Research found that by age 16, one child out of five will have lost a parent and approximately 90% of students will experience the loss of a family member before finishing high school.” www.alittlehope.org
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innocent criminal // by gwenlister

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i love camp!
i have some friends that are interested in volunteering at camp and that makes me sooo happy. and these are some awesome people! i am so excited that they will be coming. yayayay, i am so excited! i can't wait for them to train so that they can come to camp! i am just excited to be spreading camp to them.
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flying woman // by ryactor

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um i am so excited about the upcomin blairstown camp!!!! i cannot stop thinking about it! yayayayayya. i don't think i can wait much longer.. i'll burst. eee i get to see Ella!!
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    dancing w/ myself

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I thought this was kind of neat. I was walking back from College Writing and I had my CZC jacket on. So, some lady, about 40ish stopped me. And she was like, "Have you gone to CZC?" And I was like yeah, and I told her. Then she said she volunteered at the mini camp in Montclair and she was planning on volunteering down in Va. I just thought it was cool, I've never met someone outside of camp, that has experienced the camp magic.
Anyways, thats my story lol
Hope everyone is doing ok
holiday
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my friend, jguy8, wrote this for his college essay.
and it made me cry.

A hero is defined as a person admired for their bravery, great deeds, or noble qualities. For me, that person is my dad. Though he was never honored in a local newspaper or glamorized in a magazine- he is my hero. My dad passed away in 1996, and I thought I had lost my hero. My dad’s death was the hardest thing I have ever had to endure, but I learned from it– even though he may have died he would forever live on – because heros never die.

Throughout my childhood I admired my dad. He was always smiling and he had an infectious laugh, but it wasn’t until later that I learned that it was not always that easy for him. Throughout his life my dad suffered from an extreme case of clinical depression, but he waged a constant and valiant fight against it. He could’ve used his depression as an excuse to put himself first, but he never did that. My dad always made sure that my sisters and I knew we were loved, and that we were taken care of. My dad was the greatest example that a son could have. He loved my mom, and I always knew that. He always made sure that he had quality time with each of his children. He never missed a baseball or soccer game– he was always my biggest fan. My dad never dreaded spending time with his children; he never missed an opportunity to give you a “bear hug” or even the chance to sit down with you and watch the latest episode of “The Gummi Bears”. His love was something that was never in short supply.

Through my father’s example I believe that I learned how to love. My dad never ceased loving anyone, and through that example I learned how to be compassionate. His love was always consistent, and that had an immeasurable impact on me as a young child. It was then that I learned how to see past the flaws of others, and love them anyway. His love was unconditional, he loved everyone no matter who they were, and he taught me that through his example. With that example, and I too been capable of loving conditionally. Being able to love has become one of my greatest assets, and it is something that I will hold onto forever.

It has been nearly 8 years since my dad passed away, and he still remains my hero. It was tough growing up and seeing my friends develop strong relationship with their fathers, but that firm relationship was something that I had long before I lost my dad. Shortly after my dad passed away, Janet Jackson released a sing entitled “Everywhere”. The lyrics state, “Everywhere I go, every smile I see, I can see your star shining down on me.” Those lyrics helped me realize that no matter where he is my dad is looking down on me, and he is proud to call me his son. His example is something that I will never forget. He life was full of integrity and love, and I hope that one day I can do the same. Though he was only physically apart of my life for 10 years – I am everything I am because my dad loved me.

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My friend from College made me watch the Everwood season premiere awhile ago. And at the end of the show, Ephram said this quote. I guess in the show he lost his mother. He is talked to his friend Amy in this quote, because her boyfriend just died. And it is kind of how I've felt...... I hope you like it..

"You know, after my mom died, everybody told me that I was gonna be ok. That, it would take a little time, but I would heal. Well, that didn't ever happen; not really anyway. . . What you're feeling right now Amy, it doesn't ever really go away -- not completely. It's not like, ya know, you're gonna go back to being the person you were before they died -- the person's gone. It's more like something inside of you breaks and your body finds a way to compensate for it. Like if you busted your right hand, you figure out how to use the left one. And sure, you might resist for awhile because you're pissed off that you have to learn all this stuff again that nobody else does. Eventually your body takes over and figures it out for you. And your glad. because if it was up to you. . . you'd look at your broken hand forever and try to figure out what it was like before." Everwood